試合復帰やあれこれ
今日はジョギングから腕立て。とある思いがあって…
昨年の年末と年始まで謎の無気力感が襲い、大殺界の後厄何かかなと
おとなしく無気力感に浸り、静かに過ごしてましたが
今週あたりから、いっちょやってみよか〜って😀
少しづつ無気力感から脱してきました。
そんな時に限って、空手の試合に挑戦してみようかなって条件反射的に気持ちが湧くのです(遠い昔、試合出ていました。今も道場に所属しています。)
最近は小学2年生の息子の稽古サポート役に徹しているといのを言い訳に
自分はマイペース。もちろん仕事が忙しいのと将来に向けての資格取得の勉強だったり、ちょっとしたバイトだったり
でも頑張っているねと周りの方々には言ってもらえて嬉しいんですが
汗かき、キツい思いしながら何で予定日決めて怖い試合すんのと思っていた
試合が時々出たくなり、出ない事に変な罪悪感まで出たりとか息子には挑戦させといてと…😢
数年前から悩まされている片則性顔面神経痛の手術も決心した事で
より前向きになれたんだと
タイトなスケジュールから頑張れる自分をを見つめ直して
本当に頑張っているかを確認しよう。
どこまで続くかわからないけど綴っていきます。
Today, I went from jogging to push-ups. I had a certain thought…
At the end and beginning of last year, I had a mysterious feeling of lethargy, and I thought it might be some kind of bad luck after the Great Kanto Earthquake.
I was quietly immersed in the lethargy and spent my time quietly…
But this week, I decided to give it a try.
I'm getting out of the lethargy little by little.
It's at times like this that I get a conditioned reflex to challenge myself to a karate match (I used to compete in matches in the distant past. I still belong to a dojo).
(I used to participate in karate matches in the distant past.
I've been taking things at my own pace. Of course, I am busy with work, studying for qualifications for the future, and a small part-time job.
But I'm happy to hear that people around me say that I'm doing my best.
I've been sweating, feeling hard, and wondering why I have to schedule a date and play a scary game.
Sometimes I want to go to a game, and sometimes I feel guilty about not going to a game, and sometimes I feel guilty about letting my son try 😢.
I've also made up my mind to have surgery for my unilateral facial neuralgia that has been bothering me for several years.
I think I'm more positive now.
I've been able to look back at myself and see how hard I can work with a tight schedule.
Let's see if you're really trying.
I don't know how long I'll be able to keep this up, but I'll keep spelling it out.
